Having boys

We have two boys. A joke between my husband and I is that I have one (the younger - D) and he has one (the older - A). This makes it easy for him to be "done" having kids. My husband is perfectly content with our two boys. We discussed having a third 2 and 3 years ago. We even decided to go ahead with trying. Until the brakes were put on with unexpected life changes. So now that things have "settled" in our life what do we do now. I always thought of myself with three boys. However, I always wanted them to be no more than 2 or 3 years apart from each other. Now our youngest is about to turn 5. Do I even want to start over with a baby? Or am I just thinking and chasing after a dream. On top of that...it is MY dream / plan and I profess to following God's plan. Hmmm.... Maybe God's plan was for me to have two boys all along.

Back to the his son, my son joke. Our oldest boy always wants his daddy. When daddy is not home A is somewhat sad. Daddy makes boo boos feel better and daddy can calm him. Daddy has to say goodnight to him first and then mom. I even had to give up my desire to go on the field trip with him in order for daddy to go. But, I absolutely LOVE that he loves his daddy and wants to be just like his daddy. I also absolutely LOVE that his daddy loves him so much and recognizes this connection. Daddy even took a day off of work to go on the field trip and make it very special. However, there are times when a mom is just what all kids want. I know my oldest son loves me too. He tells me his favorite part of his school day is when I pick him up. He also wants me to walk him all the way to class, holding hands, each morning. Even though he used to do it all by himself when he rode the bus. I'll do it. I will park the car and walk through the halls all the way to the class to have my special time with him. And, last night when he had a headache he let me hold him and rock him back to sleep. That makes me feel good.

My youngest son loves me. He wants "to be" with me all the time. I know that he loves to be home with me. And I love to be home with him. I'm grateful though that he is a confident and secure little boy. He is not such a mommas boy that he can't be away from me. Dropping him off for kindergarten will be easy (for him). He can't wait to go to school and be on his own. But, ya know what. He loves his daddy too. He wants to be like his daddy. He likes to do things the way his daddy does. Daddy works out, so does D. Daddy does push ups, so does D.

It is truly amazing the love that moms and dads have for children and multiple children at that. And it is amazing how two very different young boys in the same family can love their parents so intensely and in different ways. I am proud to be a mother of two boys. I am proud to know that my kids want to be like their dad. I am proud of my husband as a father. He is a FABULOUS role model for them. Thank you babe! I love you.